Your statement is also disastrous, with too many flaws, inconsistent from start to finish, and lacking in persuasiveness. But to be honest, I can understand. A college student who has never made money suddenly facing a large amount of attention and traffic, it's normal to take a detour when it comes to interests. However, you also need to be clear that this blame is not just arbitrarily placed on you. You know best what you said, which parts are lies, and whose chat records these are.